Teri Ore Chale...

03-04-2010, Saturday: Today I was all eager to meet her...my intuition kept on telling me that it wont work as usual...as usual, the person i adore wont turn up or else would just ignore meeting me for something else. And it did happen that way. I was trying to call her since morning but all the time her cell was switched off. Later after it was almost 10.45am, i once tried calling her, this time however the phone was ringing, my heartbeat became fast, coz even her voice felt like a million moments of unending love. Bt she didnt pick up my call, later she msgd me and she wrote that she cudnt make it coz she was with her family at the temple...maybe she was telling the truth or maybe as usual she never wished to meet me 2day coz maybe i was just a mere option for her...bt she was turning out to be something more for me...i wish...only God knows how it will all turn out...anyway, I tried convincing her to meet me bt she still didn't come. I satisfied myself my saying that i will meet her next monday...I spent the rest of my day pretending to be cheerful and somehow tried to make up for my loss by working with my 24fps team...i felt good...but the best part was when i heard a new song...a beautiful one from the movie "Kites"...it made me feel better...that no matter what love will come back to me and that one day i will fall in love...maybe with her or maybe...

On the other hand i tried cheering up my mdm coz she was not in her as usual jovial self...something was wrong, she was just 'acting' normal and i cud see in her eyes that something was wrong...maybe bcoz of me, i don't know or maybe not...whatever it was it disturbed me a lot and it still disturbs me....and finally as people end the misery of a whole day with a bottle or some hard-time on the bed...i did so by working late on the poster of my seminar and also listening to my fav new song..."Dil kyun yeh mera...shor kare...idhar nahi, udhar nahi...teri ore chale....." In memory of a lost hope...unending expectations...and...for the everlasting search of love...goodnight everyone...